I keep asking myself “What?” every other day because words honestly fail me when I think about the state of the world 🌎. We’re in the middle of a pandemic, #BlackLivesMatter is a global movement and wearing masks 😷 has become semi-mandatory. Am I surprised? No. Am I shocked? YES!
To live today means to embrace this moment—nothing else.
A few years ago I protested for equality and against police brutality in NYC. It was 2014 and nationally a new height of racial awareness was brewing. From my perspective we seemed headed into great change in support of social justice. World leaders were calling for change too. But nothing happened—or if it did I didn’t notice it. 2020 proved me right and the face of discrimination made its grand entrance again. But this time I think things will change because enough is enough. As a Hispanic woman who’s not only watched African Americans be treated overtly differently than me, I stand in making our collective futures right. Being “brown” has its nuances but I cannot say that’s it the same as being “black.” African Americans walk a completely different racial journey than Hispanics and I strongly feel that unless POC keep ourselves accountable in advocating equality across all ethnicities, we will not see the cycle of hate disappear.
As for COVID19, well, where do I start? I’m a Cancer survivor, deemed high risk for contraction, and have felt absolute stress in navigating its existence. I followed quarantine for months—to a tee. And now that Texas, my home state is open, I’m back to a new normal that feels strange. I’m struggling with being around people but I’m getting over it. Most likely washing my hands hundreds of time a day but overall, living! I don’t want to live in fear nor do I want to be an asymptotic carrier that doesn’t take caution. Balancing my need for life and death is a journey I’ve walked before. Except this time, it involves my community at large so my guard is up! I’m resolved to make each day matter or else I’ll go insane.
Last but not least the mask 😷 factor. I’ve actually sewn 🧵 a lot of masks and enjoyed being of service to those in need. Do I personally like wearing them? Not so much. They can be claustrophobic and itchy. But I think the physical barrier they provide actually helps in preventing communal transmission. I don’t believe they ultimately stop a virus 🦠 from spreading. That would be incredible! Hospitals have used them for centuries so why not the public until we find a better solution? It’s not about infringement of rights in being told to wear a mask by a restaurant or shop owner. It’s simply about protecting one another and sometimes that means you must bend a little too.
This summer I turned forty. It’s the biggest and best birthday I’ve celebrated yet. It’s also the most eye opening. I am no longer a thirty something. I am now in a new category of life and even closer to fifty! Ouch!
In truth, I am so grateful to have made it forty times around the sun and can’t wait to see what life has next for me. I’m secretly hoping to explore the United States more and camp my way through Colorado. I also have ambitions to learn how to ski again. Only time will tell what’s in store and I’m ready for it.
Fiesta is back with new content to be published by February 1st 2019. Please stay tuned!
Today I’m making steps to retire my blog “fiesta” and start a new brand named Beau! This has been on my mind for a long time and I’m finally making both mental and physical steps to make it happen. As I finish up my MBA studies, I’m thrilled to start something new. My gut is telling me it’s time to mold all my talents, including design, into my future and I sincerely get giddy just thinking about it. So, stay tuned for updates here as I make steps to launch Beau and thanks for following me! xoxo Moni
Right now I’m loving my Rejuvenique oil by MONAT. It’s an essential oil I’ve been using for my face and hair over the last six months. Not only do I “swear” by it, I’m officially giving it a #monimusthave, something I don’t do often unless I 💯 believe in a product.
I’m enjoying the transition from winter to spring and attending a lot of happy hours 🍾 Not just to have a beer or cocktail but to meet interesting people I might not meet in my neighborhood. I ventured to the Renaissance Hotel in Plano, TX yesterday and wow! It’s gorgeous and so inviting. The “R” above is just an example of its eclectic style and chic lighting. Did I mention I also met someone, too 😍
Pastels are typically a Spring must have in my closet but I’m more into muted pastels plus prints. My top above is from Anthropologie and is a light rayon blend that feels smooth on my body. I’m trying my best to only invest in things I absolutely adore and this top for that criteria to a tee.
I’ve decided that I will only use the words “I love you” or “I love” unless I really do. Sometimes I catch myself throwing the “Love” word around like water. Must stop now…
Last, but not least (and not pictured), it’s Holy Week! It’s been a time of sincere reflection and rest. I’m great full to have had a few extra hours to myself contemplating my life, asking God for guidance, the universe for positive and simply being still. I strongly encourage everyone to take time for themselves, even if it’s not tied to a religious reason.
Let me know how you are doing! I want to hear your story.
Living in Dallas hasn’t necessarily been the easiest. First, the weather has been absolutely unpredictable and sometimes miserable. Second, my daily routine has been in flux due to work changes. Third, I’m not a fan of the traffic. Even NYC traffic was bearable.
I’m hanging in. I’m not quite sure how this phase of life is going to roll out. It’s a season of uncertainty for me as well as change. Actually, constant change! Everything from my body to spirit feels as if it’s shifting and I’m watching from the sidelines. This isn’t a first for me so I’m going to roll with it.
I might have mentioned a few times over that I’m in love ❤️ with poetry. I’m not sure when this crush began or morphed into a such deep appreciation of words. During college I was first an Engineering student and do not remember taking any creative writing courses. So, I suppose it began on the streets of NYC, where I listened to beat-box artists on the subway or spoken word at local cafes.
My knowledge of POETS is always expanding. I lean on the New Yorker or Paris Review to introduce me to New writers. The latest one is Frederick Seidel.
There’s something about how I’m feeling today. It’s slightly different than usual and I want to explore share my thoughts with you. I’m actually writing this post from my iPhone so bear with me as I dig a little deeper…
Yesterday I had a semi-stressful day because I was dealing with a graduate 👩🏽🎓 group assignment that’s been hard to organize. It’s Thanksgiving holiday so who wants to study?! Also, a romance interest of mine went dark.
I think he disappeared into outer space.
Between balancing emotions and rational thought about either topic I didn’t want to loose myself, to not feel exactly what I needed to so I asked myself “Do you feel anything? I was surprised to discover that I really did, aside from the frustration of either scenario.
One thing that my current MBA program has taught me is that reading and writing are the tools to success. It sounds so simplistic and a little plane but it’s the truth.
Think about it, if we didn’t read then we would not be privy to excitement via text messages or subtitled French Noir films. And if we did not write, then we wouldn’t have the ability to express emotion on paper. Sure, we’d be able to explore or share our voice and physical movements but the ability to write is absolutely freeing.
I’m not sure this Thanksgiving could be any more bountiful than it already has been in only 24 hours. Let me explain.
I’ve managed to spend time with some of the most important people in my life with nothing more than to eat, drink and be merry. It’s almost poetic the way everyone is so happy around me and it’s brought up a thought: what if life were like this all the time? I’m not sure I’d be a proponent of such non-stop sentimental luxury but I will say this, I like it!